aiiihhh

ehemm

ntah knapa akhir akhir ini kepala saya badan saya semua nya . melambuung . tinggi . astagaaaa . benar benar menakutkan kalo jatuh rasanya kayak apa... i cant tell y'all what i'm feeling now . and then... it made me goin crazy....

seseorang , yaaah bukan seseorang lagi , dia sahabat ku , hahahah . selaluu . my best man . i dont know why suddenly . and really suddenly he asked me to be his gf , oh gosh . aku cuman bisa ternganga . hahahha . abisnya dia lebih biasa membuat ku tertawa dengan segala macam candaannya yang memang waktu duluuuuu bget kuakui aku pernah tertarik padanya daripada memandangnya seperti saat ini . tapi sekali lagi ketertarikan itu juga uda duluuu .  tak berlangsung lama .

sekali lagi i dont know why dia bisa berkata seperti itu malam itu . hahaha . aku nanggepin cuman sepintas aja . karna pada awalnya dia hanya bertanya , are you really really single now?? and he asked me about ehemm... and he also asked me to answerred him as soon as possible . and i knew what was he mean . yep . it was mean "answer now, please" . and i dont know why i jusd said ok ok ok . hahaha . saya akui waktu itu aku lagi rame rame nya chat fb sama temen temen . and he was one of them . i dont really mind bout his words till he said , i really i do . ikhlass gak nih jawab ok? hahahaha . i jusd laughed when i type my answer . yeah i do . 

hahaha . eventhough it jusd backstreet and noone know about this , i jusd regard it as his joke . no . our joke . i neva' dream as he's being my bf . eventhough as "his affair gf" . 

hahahaha . perlu dijelaskan . ya . he already possessed gf . and yeah . of course i'm jusd 'his affair gf'

i regard it as our joke . i feel so sorry for his trully gf. really i do . sorry . sorry . 

i know i was wrong .  i know . but i can't stop it . i dont know why . really .

and the other strange , i jusd feel happy now . sometimes i jusd be a patient when he didnt send me a message . ouh i knew i'm not the special one . he already had it . i knew i must be patient . bcz i knew it jusd our joke . oh c'mon please wake me up from all of this madnesss. please wake me up from my imagine world . 

cuma kata "andai" yang ada sekarang ini . please . wake me upppppp !!!

arrggghhhh

kata katanya membuat saya melambung tinggi . extremely high . i hate tht i must say i think i'll gonna do love you boy . again .

ouch .

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